Ok so here I am with an update on my 8 day long Delhi trip. I had already told you what I was looking forward to in the trip and what happened was very much in line with it. Work went well, met some old friends, missed some others and met some new friends. Enjoyed a lot and I finally did see The India Gate. :-) And yeah I did a lot of shopping for myself and for everyone at home. But besides all that what made this trip significant is a feeling.
I got this feeling today… that I am very lucky. I am lucky because I am loved. I always took everything in a stride in life, even the feeling that I was never important enough to make a difference to someone’s life. My existence I always thought was (ummmm how do I put it?) Superfluous? I lived because I did not know what else to do with life… My family always loved me, but I never felt indispensable. I mean that feeling of being wanted… being missed in your absence.
This trip made me feel all that from the people I love the most. My sister missed me in the office, at home….. missed the chatter and fights we used to have… missed the bike rides everyday to and fro in the mornings and evenings, though I have almost broken her leg once and she keeps complaining about my rash driving. She missed me on her walks… at the dinner table… our fights over the bed that we share. My Aunt missed me… she didn’t take her medicines for three nights in my absence. The day I came back and I massaged her legs, like I do every night, she told me how much she missed it that week. My Bhabhi missed my creative ideas on my niece’s birthday. Every year we used to throw a party on her birthday with a unique theme… everything right from the party invitation card to the menu, theme and games used to be unique… all done by us. This year they missed me while making the arrangements. When I entered home after a week, my niece hugged me and told me how much she loved me. I feel loved… I feel important… I feel wanted. :-)
Abhi ke liye bas itna hi… Khuda hafiz :-)
21 comments:
Hehe. It's an awesome feeling, isn't it -- feeling wanted?
And it's a fact that everyone in this world has an importance-value attached to him or herself.
That, presumably, is a reason we exist.
Although I think there is more to existence than for others.
Selfish?
Maybe.
I'd say we have been created just for ourselves.
If we had been created for others, this world would be a far far better place than what it is now...
Ah, well..
SO! Great trip eh? Oooh :D.
hmmm..ur silly as always...its not always imp for ppl to wlak upto u n tell u tht they love u...wen u live in a family...ur indispensible..n i hope u know ur imp in the family...ppl wont me as much as they wud miss u...n on behalf of all of us...want to tell u just one thing...we all love u...
@kazarelth: Oh yes there is more to existence than for others. Most of the times we live for ourselves. But sometimes it feels good to feel important, to belong, to be part of a whole. :-)
@rangoli singh: Oye.... you were not supposed to read it. And I am not silly. grrrrrrr...
I know... :-)
are u trying to say tht i close my eyes wen i visit ur blog???
silly toh beta ur bachpan se...
So, U were a good fren after all!!
hehehe! :P
I wonder if anybody is gonna miss me if im not at home, No one has ever told me so :((
gah! but then, I've neva missed anyone in my life either!
Except for my mom when she is not in station!!
Peace & Love
JeeVY
wow!! th efeeling of being loved, being missed by somebody is so lovely..
Its remind me of my home..when i used to go home and have a very warm feelings..
Take care...
ah! what romantic notions.....but think about the soldiers who spend months away from their families, and the IT coolies who spend their lives in B'lore or Hyderabad, and the Bihari labourers who search for livelihood all over India(like tree roots in search of water on a parched land) and get killed in Assam and Kashmir....
:)
ab my lord jim (upar) ke bhaari questions ka jawaab do.
wow me 2 just back from delhi last week but diudnt have experience like u and even if i had wudntbe abl;e to put in wotds like u and thanx for ur lovely comment
@Rangoli: Naaa ji... but I expect you to surpass certain posts that have a certain common origin and affect areas haan? heheheheh ;-)
@rajeev: I suppose so... though at the cost of sounding an egotist.
;-)
awwww! mom is not in town? hmmm... I am sure your family will miss you, even if they don't say it. Families don't say many things they do... :-)
@Shruti: Am I making everyone homesick? ;-)
Yeah I know that feeling buddy. :-)
@Lord Jim: Yes my lord... Romantic notions they are and shamelessly romantic. The soldiers, the IT coolies, the bihari labourers all of them do stay away from their families... but to rear the same families, to send back a part of their wage everymonth so their families can get better rations than their domestic-based neighbours... Isn't that romance? And talking about the soldiers, they serve their deaths as meal to their country, so that the country can survive... Isn't that romance?
Romance is what takes you out of the mundane daily life to give you some happiness. Romance is what makes a dreamer, a visionary out of an ordinary man. Romance is the ingredient that gives the flavour of love to otherwise brute sex. Romance is what makes life worth living buddy. :-)
@Sushant: :-)
Dediya... but convincing hai? ;-)
@Protege: what timing. :-)
hmmmm.... well I am sure the experiences would have been there, but under cover. :-) Not always do our loved ones word that love. :-)
Romance is not synonymous with happiness....if thats what u meant.
Actually happiness is monotonous...makes me remember Tolstoy,"Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way"
Lord Jim: No I am not equating Romance to happiness. Happiness may be one of the by-products of Romance along with many others. And Romance may not necesarrily breed happiness...
No... I dont think happiness is monotonous... because the moment you are constantly happy, your expectations with happiness increase and then u strive for greater happiness. I love Anna Karenina and especially those opening lines.
Well, everyone is entitled to his (or HER) own opinion :)
yes. :-)absolutely. and thanks for visiting. I enjoyed the opinion sharing with you. :-)
hey i deleted that green ribbon post.
One of my fren told me that she had read a similar story! so i thought that it was unoriginal and deleted it!!
my new poem about birth is out!! :)
do read it!!
tahnx!
peace &Love
JeeVY
Rajeev: So what if it is an old story? legends are told and re-told, and everytime they are told, a new flavour is added. :-)
waise I had never heard of that story before.
Read the poem. :-)
Cheers!
Meenakshi
heyy there!!
Thank You so much for visiting my blog, althoug i am feelin this lil guilty that i had to make you read my "grumbling" post the first time u visited it :D...and keepin up with my character the post has been deleted :) thats typically me,i hate to keep all sad bad posts :D
Thank you for the comment, the post was just writen out of a minute,you know, puttin out all the irritation somewhere :D,
i love what you have written ;)
i do know how it is when we stay away from people we love, realization hits everyone then, and its realy cute how ppl express it ;)
but if we stay away for a loooooooooong time, the missin almost becomes permanent, and i hate that 'permanent missing'
have been away from home for 4.5 years :D ;loved the "warm welcome" and love i got when i got back... but hardly a year has passed and the ppl whom i have left back in india hav become a part of my "permanent missing"
Oh Goddd! italked so much eh? sorry sorry sorry
i love your posts..cool way ofwriting...
takecare!!!!
shammu
Hi Shammu,
I enjoyed reading your blog. And no I did not read only the grumbling post, but a few others too. And you know what, these grumbling posts are so true, closer to your self... so I like them :-)
hahahaha... I know, the task of unburdening yourself. Its important and let me assure you, I loved reading your post, it was so honest.
Yes I know what you mean by the permanant missing. It is when that incomplete feeling, that loneliness becomes part of your everyday life. I dont like it either. :-)
And you don't have to be sorry... I absolutely loved and cherished your comment. I loved the frankness...Please keep visiting. :-)
Btw... the way you spoke, I didnt even realize that I dont know you well... You talk warmly like an old friend. :-) Thanks!
and you take care too... Cheers!
Now that has to a real Special special trip you had Minakshi...
I mean not only the trip was fun for u ...but you gat this feeeling which for me would the most important feeling in life...
Great...
keep smiling..:)
@standbymind: arre I didnt see your comment earlier. :-)
Yeah it was special... but after a while, feelings evaporate. Wish there was a way you could store these emotions to be cherished forever.
:-)
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